Goodbye, 2021

I know SNS feed usually flows over with all these posts about gratitude and positivity around this time of the year, but to be completely honest, the year 2021 has been one that I just want to erase out of my life if possible, as if nothing ever happened. Like, if my life is a book, I just want to tear this whole chapter out of the book.​

I’m not gonna lie. There were countless moments where I just wanted to stop writing. Some, actually many pages, I didn’t want to write at all. I had no idea what I was writing let alone hating what I was writing.​

Still, there must’ve been a few good and decent pages written, right? Even if it’s just a couple of pages of 365 ones. I do believe those pages are the ones that keep us going amid chaos, sadness, and madness. Maybe we’re all just a lost author who’s cluelessly waiting for that one page that can be filled with something good whatever that means to each of us.​

So, do not drop the pen yet. Pick it up. Whether the story up to this point is likable or not, it should go on. While I can’t revise the pages that are already written, I CAN choose what to write for blank pages that are ahead of me, waiting to be filled with somewhat meaningful characters and events by its author. (As much as I don’t want any antagonists in my book, most of the time, they are the ones that teach me the greatest lesson of the plot.)​

And here comes the first page again of another chapter of this seemingly endless book. Well, if I can’t stop writing, I might as well try to write a good one.​

p.s. I also wanna remind every author of this: If you are worn out, it is okay to cut yourself some slack. At the end of the day, it is your book. So who’s going to blame the author for taking it slow?​

안녕2021,안녕2022